“I should feel guilty”

Now I know why I used to say that, and what it hid.


April 29, 2015 at 5:16 pm Leave a comment

About Our Beloved Cell Phones

‘OMG. Who really cares? They’re plastic pieces of crap that dominate our lives anyway. Now they’re dominating our virtual lives and conversation! Machines already rule the world, it’s just like pets; “Look what I just got MY human to do!!”‘


My part in a thread where people were arguing intensely about the utter perfection of either Android or Apple phones–cell phones, yes.  It is arguable that we’re seeing the birth of artificial intelligence precisely through the mass interaction with computers that also act in a cloud, just as it’s arguable to say that human intelligence is solely social because it’s maintained through the given language.


As for the malice–a bit over 40 years ago; “I hate computers and I hate programmers worse!”  It wasn’t true, but it was and is appropriate.  With the birth of the ‘C’ series, bear in mind that it is difficult to impossible to avoid premade short snippets of logic [truly intrinsic to the statement; see a textbook for an explanation that could be more understandable], one of the reasons for the progression.


…Dedicated to Felicity, my 16-year old cat, who…hates computers.  They take far too much attention from her!

September 17, 2017 at 6:02 pm 1 comment

Public Service Message; NOT POLITICAL

Please read to the end

This is from Dr. Geetha Krishnaswamy, Please give your 2 minutes and read this:

1. Let’s say it’s 7.25pm and you’re going home (alone of course) after an unusually hard day on the job.
2. You’re really tired, upset and frustrated.
3 Suddenly you start experiencing severe pain in your chest that starts to drag out into your arm and up in to your jaw. You are only about five km from the hospital nearest your home.
4. Unfortunately you don’t know if you’ll be able to make it that far.
5. You have been trained in CPR, but the guy who taught the course did not tell you how to perform it on yourself.
6. HOW TO SURVIVE A HEART ATTACK WHEN ALONE? Since many people are alone when they suffer a heart attack without help, the person whose heart is beating improperly and who begins to feel faint, has only about 10 seconds left before losing consciousness.
7. However, these victims can help themselves by coughing repeatedly and very vigorously. A deep breath should be taken before each cough, and the cough must be deep and prolonged, as when producing sputum from deep inside the chest. A breath and a cough must be repeated about every two seconds without let-up until help arrives, or until the heart is felt to be beating normally again.
8. Deep breaths get oxygen into the lungs and coughing movements squeeze the heart and keep the blood circulating. The squeezing pressure on the heart also helps it regain normal rhythm. In this way, heart attack victims can get to a hospital.
9. Tell as many other people as possible about this. It could save their lives!!
10. A cardiologist says If everyone who gets this mail kindly sends it to 10 people, you can bet that we’ll save at least one life.
11. Rather than sending jokes, please… contribute by forwarding this mail which can save a person’s life.
12. If this message comes around you… more than once… please don’t get irritated… You should instead, be happy that you have many friends who care about you & keeps reminding you how to deal with a Heart attack. on your FB wall, without comment, only a heart, then send this message to your contacts. 💗💗💗💗

Hold your finger down on the message and hit forward.

September 15, 2017 at 2:55 pm 1 comment

Book of Sayings (On Truth)


Book of Sayings (3)

about names and thought*

today there are hurried motions
in no direction, though
that sullen half-silence turns
quickly to rage if even slightly

no speech;
the crowd grumbles and snarls
wordlessly; it does not name

but without names it cannot speak
nor therefore think. has
it somehow cast me out?

i wonder for a moment.
then i realize again
my namelessness
*or, when i learned to speak
i forgot all truth




It’s possible I’m re-posting this.  This is very much about what’s happening now.  It was written with a view to now.  And it was written and typed on…the 27th of January, this year.

September 13, 2017 at 2:54 pm Leave a comment

Getting A Lot of Money Suddenly


I didn’t get nearly that much.  I am however going to give advice.  Many football players, actors/actresses, lottery players and veterans who ‘strike it rich’ to varying degrees…go broke quickly.  The primary reason I’ve seen is friends and family and of course complete lack of financial savvy.  Limit your charity–I wish I’d done more.  You acquire those who feel they have the right to be your dependent (I am not talking about my wife, incidentally).  You find that you have to be more and more circumspect in talking about money and you will lose friends (as a veteran I truly resent the many who termed my compensation from Vietnam as “luck”; it took me 23 years of being called a fool, liar and crazy–VA interviewers–and that does a lot to you eventually, even me).


Set aside a large amount of what you just got and gradually put it to work.  Starting a business isn’t wise as a first decision.  Over 90% of businesses go out of business (…) within 5 years; 99% at last report fail in 10; in this town, a hundred years is about the limit thus far.  Buying blue chip stocks tends to be a good bet, done gradually and assuming that you’re not going to do well at it for at least a year.  [Study candlestick charting theory briefly but unless you’re going to do options don’t use it as a main investment tool; look at performances, debts, price to value and especially trading in company stocks by insiders.  Also use Microsoft Money if you’re using Windows.  Seeking Alpha free is a good bet.  The only Motley Fool suggestions I followed didn’t pan out well.  I subscribe to the Wall Street Journal.  International Business Daily/IBD is a valuable tool for many people, although I found the CANSLIM method unsatisfactory; if the tests are right and I am a genius it lies in the direct perception and manipulation of patterns.  English doesn’t contain the capacity to describe how I think and I have entirely given up on attempting to describe it, except that I think “sideways”, use both temporal lobes and am consequently extremely good at logic historically.


If you quit working your social life will suffer especially if you’re male.  DO NOT OVER-COMPENSATE BY SPENDING MONEY.  For one thing that doesn’t work.  Expand your horizons.  Take some courses, but do it online; if you have Windows there are a whole host of legitimate courses, for free or paid.  Don’t expect any better treatment from cops or anyone else.  Make sure that you buy living quarters that you can afford to maintain; no mansions.  Get a VPN.  Monitor your credit.


And finally–GOOD LUCK!  I had one ex-friend (he was a stained-glass worker who was suffering from brain damage/heavy metal poisoning/inhaling vaporized lead and absorbing it through the skin, so this, like everything has multiple causations rather than a single cause, which is basically impossible*) who threatened to kill me over having gotten compensation.


*A single cause; a cue striking a cue ball which strikes another ball and the ball went into the pocket.  Causes apparent; impact, force, mass, inertia, gravity,  felt on the table (especially the sides), spin, calculated trajectory–GRAVITY, air, an intent to accomplish something–the existence of money [a relative supposed indicator of value], an enclosed space.  The actual cause; it wanted to do it.  Cause can’t be tested.  Events can only be ‘disproven’ to a certain and very limited extent.  There is no evidence of anything ever having a single cause.

September 13, 2017 at 2:05 pm Leave a comment

ghost (and other half-known visions)


i had not thought
to meet your ghost so soon!
it seems we met
so recently…

but i have measured
days like falling sands,
and measured the universe
with a hand’s-span,
a thumb’s-width…

have journeyed lightyears
while sitting in an armchair, know
a host of characters
i’ve never met nor shall…

salt passages and seawinds:
swaying trees in summer breezes.
i was promised, variously, enlightenment, years ago:

i’ve never found it.
the meaning of your touch
disappeared with you.
…how odd to meet your ghost.

(‘:voices, from a room thought long empty’)


This is one of those odd poems which are both quite real and unreal or perhaps surreal.

September 4, 2017 at 1:12 am Leave a comment


That’s where I approximately am.  I am thinking, rather intensely, it’s just that the thought is rarely in terms [solely] of words and presumable language.  More than that at this level of thought no one else wants to hear it, in my 50 years or so of experience.


And then I rediscover how much more I can hear–and even think–if I avoid words, except in poems and the occasional tidbit.  I’m also finally studying ubuntu and going toward a good position to basically challenge for a master’s in some skyence typo science or other.

August 29, 2017 at 9:37 pm Leave a comment

Not Funny




The cat’s dead and this fucking picture isn’t funny.  The tail isn’t moving and the legs are straight; also note the fur on its back.  I would love to meet the person who took the shot.

August 28, 2017 at 12:46 pm Leave a comment

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