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Freedom

Freedom

Riding from the west, the knights
promise us freedom:
entranced by their shining armor, we
seek this mysterious thing.

Ah, but, later, we discover
swords powerless against
both greed and death.
Odd, this freedom

our masters brought.

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This was written during the Vietnam war, aboard Admiral Steele’s (Commander Seventh Fleet, in charge of all Far East U.S. Armed Forces) flagship CLG-5 USS Oklahoma City.  This is about two contradistinct things; that war and rhetoric surrounding actions which are unjustifiable.  As such, it’s also about politics itself.  IT IS ABSOLUTELY UNJUSTIFIABLE TO “POINT THE FINGER” AT A GIVEN POLITICAL PARTY OR EVEN METHOD OF SOCIAL ORGANIZATION.  All methods of justifying usage of force by stated hypotheses (theories are the result of hypotheses which haven’t been disproven by tests; there IS NO PROOF available through empiricism.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

October 2, 2017 at 3:01 pm Leave a comment

A Personal Note

I feel that I am impelled to be as active as I can until Wednesday.  I’m going in for what should be a minor operation  but I have problems healing and stopping bleeding because of Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome; both have worsened with age.  There will be relief from some major pain one way or the other, at least.  I don’t feel like I’ll probably die, though.  I am historically a pessisimist, FWIW.

 

UPDATE:  I read through the packet for the minor procedure.  There’s a history of problems for those with epilepsy and taking anti-seizure medicines.  In my favor is that a test conducted before the elimination of Tegretol XR showed no reaction at all to the strobe light in my brain waves, and that I’ve ‘studied’ meditation and body control for many years.  I still had ‘absence’ or ‘petit mal’ seizures for many years and I could actually finish a phone call [call center; I was driven to work there because I was too stupid and stubborn to admit my epilepsy] and drive home, although it was hard to impossible for me to speak.

 

And the last time(s) I was in a hospital was during a horrible series of seizures that I had a hard time escaping from* and ended up on the wire more than once; they quit counting heart attacks and my neurologist at the time told me that in all probability one more grand mal would be the very last, just after telling me that he’d had to prescribe a lethal amount of medications but he didn’t know what else to do; I should have died according to what he knew six years ago.  That may pellucidly explain my entire reluctance for that absolutely riskless procedure, a colonoscopy.

 

*I do not follow the most grueling rules of language that make what is said a dozen times harder to understand.  “Never end a sentence (or a clause) with a preposition” is the rule I often violate, knowingly.

September 24, 2017 at 12:44 pm Leave a comment

Have You Ever Formatted A Nice Big Flash Drive To…

a horribly tiny one?  Have you then wondered what on Earth you could do, short of driving to the nearest computer service and either admitting your mistake or trying to stammer your way into “Well, Windows made me do it!” [which is somewhat reminiscent of something constantly recurring right now, just can’t manage to think of what (Trump) it might be that it’s reminding me of (Trump)], I wonder (Trump) why my fingers keep typing that… [Enough of “Trump made me do it!!” for today, lol…]

 

I did.  Or else when Windows was formatting the flash memory drive for a recovery drive (I had my mind turned firmly OFF, using anything too big for a recovery drive is asinine) it did turn most of it into a reserved–therefore unusable–partition.  However, as I recall, there was simply a default and I mindlessly accepted it.

 

What on Earth, you say, is the solution?  http://rufus.akeo.ie/NOTE THAT THIS IS NOT HTTPS.  Scan the download with the antivirus that I know you have before even dreaming of presuming to install it, as I know you do with every download.  Why, I even know you’re looking at VPN offers right now.

 

Rufus turned a 128 GB flash drive that had been turned into a 32 GB flash drive by formatting…right back into a 128 GB flash drive.  I was using Windows 10.  It was fast.  I also did the scan first, for damaged sectors.  At that point it showed only one unused partition.  So I aborted the process and tried to use it.  Windows told me it had to be formatted (! the thing I wanted !).  So I formatted it to 128 GB and it worked very smoothly.  [120 GB, actually, is usable; 8 GB overhead for tracking files, folders and dates for storage, modification and the lack.

 

Tomorrow I’ll turn a 32 GB external hard drive back into 3 TB (as I recall, could just possibly have been 2 TB) and make another entry as to the program I used.  I also need to give notes on recovery of the XPS 2720 Dell that took so bloody much time, the Dell 3020 that got hit by a virus among other things, the Alienware and the network that turned alien on it [to be precise, how I optimized something to see how much damage I could do and it was considerable], the NAS (Network Attached Storage, storage for the entire network through the router) that failed because of the RAID setting and appropriate RAID settings for such things, and at some point setting up the VPN on an ASUS RT-AC68U router (that’s what the RT stands for).  That’s not quite all that happened to me while I was virtually (virtuously? whatever) silent…but it may be all I tell.  Whatever.  It was indeed interesting.

 

 

July 31, 2017 at 8:44 pm Leave a comment

I’m still here, but….

I once again got hacked, while setting up a computer–the one where /C: drive failed–again.  Evidently it was because I didn’t set up a non-Windows AV immediately but let Windows Defender handle it when I just had to get on the internet.  At the exact moment that someone had disabled real-time protection on [my chosen AV for that machine at that moment] and completely disabled Windows Defender I attempted a scan and failed.  I’m sure I know when and I did what I could, but with the information I had it was TIME THEN to do a refresh, keeping my files but no software.

 

I’m getting close to the point of keeping all but one computer-based Windows OS off the internet on the whole and using the laptop for that connect.  There are a number of options to explore.  Anyway I’m happy I caught it within (as I said) moments literally of the occurrence.  I would say there’s a large possibility of it having been ransomware.

June 30, 2017 at 7:32 pm Leave a comment

The US role as superpower

and Trump, and Obama.  Since the ending of World War II the U.S. has a (self-) generated program to “Bring the American Way to the World” as one commercial had it a year or two ago.  We narrowly avoided making Vietnam a territory of ours.  It would probably have been brief.  The U.S. started shipping troops out before I joined the Navy; they heavily intensified that process a few years before the end of the war.  Indications I read were that they were being staged at Guam for Afghanistan.  [I have never been able to find anything to contraindicate that–knowing that all military news that is government generated comes from the PAO, which has access to unclassified materials only.  At this time I don’t think it’s wise to point out something that should have become very obvious with that statement.  I remember running over a captain (who tried to have me court-martialed) to grab a TS  message from a PAO (Public Affairs Office, TS=Top Secret; nothing above that was put into the local computer system).  However, I did know what to look for.  The news, since Dunkirk, has been regarded as a tactical weapon.  End of heavy hints.]

 

Korea, Vietnam…the Middle East.

 

There are a number of things I could say, but none of them would be wise.  Those who were in “my” guild Unity could probably decipher that easily.  I have been trying to make this simple while avoiding direct statements.

 

Bringing the American Way to the World, however, has been defined as imperialism by others.  We have started wars because of the way that people were being treated in their own lands.  Obama was apparently attempting to leave the judgment to the UN, which I doubt Trump will support in any way or fashion other than the obligatory.  I do feel that a war against ISIS is justified and is self defense.  Attempting to profile and catch existent residents will catch more innocents than targets.  Our action in the past has been to confine all of a certain race during violent outbursts, of many races.  The Republicans are bursting with pride that Gitmo (Guantanamo Bay) will be left open, and are trying to kill any diplomatic relationship with Cuba at the same time.

 

Our president is convinced he’s better at the game than a master spy.  The timing of his marriage seems interesting to me.  Finding classified material and broadcasting it to the world has become the easiest way to be a hero.  Trump himself conformed to broadcast expectations as I recall.  But then I’m surely wrong.  All of his supporters would tell me so.

 

As far as his personal life I’m frankly indifferent.  It’s how he does the job.  Judging by statements, his choice of Cabinet members, and his reaction to suggestions by assistants, I lack hope.

 

Glenn (Samwise Davies)

 

I actually wasn’t going to write this.  There are a good many things I don’t tell.  I have never known a rich man particularly sympathetic to what he regards as the poor.  For one thing, if he became too sympathetic he’d join them and it’s happened.  Most NFL quarterbacks retire poor.  (Not after retiring from the NFL.)  Many people we “instinctively” think of as rich weren’t or became poor quickly.

 

 

January 4, 2017 at 4:20 pm Leave a comment

An Ode To Our Leader

An Ode To Our Leader

 

There was no stopping

Time, nor place nor mapped way;

we  just voyaged unpausing

to our GOAL which

 

as we voyaged, we found

was mostly what it was*

–a word, and vague fancies.

 

…Freedom is barely valued

until it’s lost

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*our goal, i should say,

which simply receded

infinitely.

his goal was to rule us

and easily succeeded.

most of us simply wanted CHANGE;

that goal we’ve certainly achieved!

We have a Leader now

Long Live The Leader And The Party!

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I wasn’t going to make any comments, I’ll make one.  The entire resemblance of this to certain manifestoes is quite unplanned, of course.  That would require sarcasm, which I barely know how to recognize let alone use.  I am proud of knowing the word, though.

January 2, 2017 at 7:12 pm Leave a comment

A Short Note

No, I won’t be doing that solely.  However, I do have rather a large volume of poetry that I spent enough energy attempting to publish by conventional means.  I can’t judge whether anyone will be interested or not; my guessing mechanism is broken on that one.  There are too many streams of cause on that one.  More fun to read something easy, sometimes.  There are so many sources of information and entertainment that competition is in a real sense meaningless.  I spent a long while pretending to be (apparently the act wasn’t successful to anyone who was near me) unintelligent and obscure.  Being noticeable wasn’t part of the plan, which meant I really didn’t want publication on one hand.

 

Right now I’m trying to assimilate 50 years of thought or so into a small, manageable form.  Relatively small.  I can go back and do the research.  Most has been done; I just need  as a start to predict and then check–I can go back and do the research.

 

The start of the years of thought was that I trusted neither determinism nor free will and most of all not absolute predestination [Calvinism].  Pure free will didn’t seem available.  Determinism (behaviorism) didn’t work, although that could be because of the fact that it assumed the identity principle.  Which seemed ridiculous once formally stated to me.  I was challenged by a teacher on that one; it seems I’m stubborn and quite persistent.

 

September 25, 2016 at 6:02 pm Leave a comment

Meeting The Family

as it were, was quite simply a non-event, as I anticipated many years ago.  I’m not even saying I had a sense of deja vu, it occurred as I ‘foresaw’ it; the odd echoing ‘notness’ of the scene explained by the internet, which has some aspects of the tree falling in an unpeopled forest and the sort of sound (the implication that sound requires hearers, and thus definition of many things; names say more about the namer than the named) that transpires…and it was quite a fitting backdrop.  There was a tiny cascade of questions from one person, without even a shard of offered information about [that person’s] self.  I could tell you a great deal, mind, about likes and dislikes; but then my genius is about being able to see patterns.  Perceive, more like, particularly with today’s days’ blurred visions.

There were I think five messages from there, seven responses from mine.  I still am not accustomed to being the eternal outsider.  Mark me well; those are not the words of self-pity or delusion.  My earliest judgement was that most others are stupid.  I stand silent about my current thoughts save to observe that then and now my attitudes have led me when I managed any sort of sanity to stand alone.

To the Muhlheisens as were and may be, I bid you well.  I am rather sure we shall never speak nor meet again.  Eugene it seems doubtless that we would have enjoyed one another’s company a few years back, but it was not so.  There is no timefold here, no master to undo the knots of timely threads and weaves.

–Good grief.

July 8, 2016 at 6:57 pm Leave a comment

Back on The Road Again

I have, since my last entry:

 

most tellingly, not written in a blog for which I pay.

Met my father’s daughter.  That doesn’t sound like much, but then I’m illegitimate and from a somewhat horrible family on my mother’s side.  I grew up with…a great deal centered around that, by other people.

My Suburban was so violently rear-ended by a Honda Acura that it did around $10k worth of damage.  Yes, of course the Suburban was drivable.  (That’s actually complete false in its assumptions and premises, by the way.)  It was nearly perfect before.  There were scratches on the plastic, before.  Now it’s a bit surprising the rear door still lifts.

Had the Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome VII confirmed.  Had the rarity of my severity confirmed.  Had the rarity of my ‘condition’ confirmed.  An epileptic with EDS and PTSD (and narcissism by the at least preliminary reports of their psychiatrists and mental or Mentat specialists).  “Oh, no, that is very, very rare” she (“they”) said when I mentioned the timeline of around 70.  Mind you, they’d been telling me how rare my case was from the moment I walked in.  Throw in whatever the Navy saw (and I was at least the most ____ man in the Fleet, but according to the bloody testers one of the most _____ people in the world; I think ______ translates to “destructive” in real terms).

 

All the signs of it.  And on the way back so violently rear-ended I’m still suffering the after-effects; that was Monday, this is Saturday, and the first time I’ve been able to write at all.  I don’t mean from shock over the Suburban I do mean from Blunt Force Trauma.

Tried to drink and threw the bottle away unopened.  Now that’s bad.  I simply don’t drink.

Attempted to start moving toward publication again and was stopped but I think I’ll be able to do it soon.

 

And the pain in my neck (which has led to a headache ever since the accident) has prevented me from doing nearly anything except weak physical labor.  I move my neck or head or something and it becomes so painful I can’t think.  And I was driving a fucking Suburban and I’d just been given a damned death sentence.  Soon.  Yes, I have luck.

 

Certainly I was at fault.  I was driving in one direction in one lane following at the proper distance and paying attention to absolutely nothing else.  I have his name and address.  I’m half-tempted to drive up there and kill him.  Writing this down and putting it on the Net ensures I won’t.  Mind you, I haven’t put name and such down, either.

June 18, 2016 at 8:08 pm Leave a comment

Various Insightful Stories

Rather a twist on The Sword In The Stone…sorry about the mordant humor.

Another tip for converting Android notes to the real world.  If, that is, you can really keep notes on your phone (mind you there are tablets and such too).

Was it a mistake? one hopes.  Google shares e-mail addresses of domain-holders…

Google Photo tips…

Yet another of the security holes in the computer world, and this one affects expenses to business because of hackers.  Worst of all I’m reminded of a Radioman “A” school adage.  “What can be encrypted can always be unencrypted.”

The peoples of India never come together …well, I mean…

This is about IoT and worth reading all of it.  Then consider this; there is much more information than is mentioned here.  Primarily for the individual there is this; there is no way to ensure that the data is anonymized and in fact…it can’t be.  Unless you learn how to randomize patterns (and remember not to wear key elements of clothing or use automobiles that are too modern, quite possibly not even carry a chip card with you at some point, be sure that you don’t have an implanted or tattooed emitter, have bought (used) clothing with cash…)  Unfortunately patterns that people use in merely driving home can predict all sorts of other things.  When I was going to high school J Edgar decided to keep lists of books checked from public libraries.  It didn’t do any good at the time for more reasons than is reasonable to name, starting with the absence of even TRS-80s (go look it up).  Now go find a corner, curl up and shiver a bit.  You should.  We all should.

Dedicated to X & Poorer, BTW

August 5, 2015 at 3:35 pm Leave a comment

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