Posts tagged ‘belief’
That–the writing part, that is–is what I’ve been doing. Not e-mail, which I increasingly regard with dubiety (since it’s impersonal almost without exception) nor cruising the net. My cat is even feeling neglected.
One part of writing is that soldier (or whatever participant and in whatever War) who is lost within it–confused within that very common problem we orphans have of finding any sort of identity. Note I didn’t say “combined” nor did I mean to do so.
I’m also working toward publishing poetry for the first time in forty years. It’s daunting to start.
I’m also considering if I should try for college especially since given the statistics I shouldn’t hope for a whole lot longer. However, the company would be nice and would distract me nicely me from the constant pain.
The painkillers will never increase in this country. I bet I can’t leave this country unless I divorce my wife or she’s dead. She has finally said differently, but it would be very hard for her. Going to Canada would also mean leaving my cat in one way or another I’m rather sure. Since she’s crushed if I go for too long a drive, it would mean putting her to sleep. 14 years is a long time for a pet, and I think she’s earned her place.
As far as the pain goes, well, it’s more than I can stand. Now think about that, and my alternatives.
Wish me luck.
Right now I am finally following back the river of time where I was progressively bound, evidently with my eager submission or else deluded fantasies of being powerless. Part of it I was. Part of it was quite assuredly was that submission, although with illusions of coming freedom. Surely my mother’s marriage…living with her sister…believing whole-heartedly in a cruel God… But then if I had resisted, how much good would it have done? Whenever I did, I was punished. I was punished for doing too well.
I walk, I say, the rivers of time, and backwards, for a while. I was never going to be a good man. I was always going to hide. It seems my thought of both was in error.
July 30, 2015
I find I have to comment that here I am using Corel WP flaws and all due to familiarity. However that actually does have relevance. Windows 8.1 was fine for me. Then again I fairly quickly wrestled Vista into submission. It was a matter of stubbornness and doing things (through experience) the [correct] wrong way.
That has nothing to do with the operating system. I have had 2 encounters with Apple’s, outside of choice. I disliked Apple because of their first commercials. I might note too that anything that “everyone has to have” is probably something I’ll decide is definitely something I can do without. Forever. For that matter, that’s basically what commercials have done for me. I hope a lot of companies are pleased to hear that. Coke. Red Bull. [Various styles and kinds of clothing, and some kind of…something called “Axe”.] Rich people trying to sell me something so that I can be as classy as they are while not having enough to, well, be what they are (worth precisely all their money, nothing more, nothing less). Car commercials–all utterly ridiculous. I like a nice-looking car, sure. The main concern is how it goes.
Which brings us to Windows 10. I didn’t like the hoopla. That’s generally someone spraying deodorant around to cover up someone else’s mistake. Generally that doesn’t seem to be the case. The Control Panel is easily available through Settings and anything complicated. “Computer” has met its final end and you just CLICK ON THE FILES ON THE TASKBAR which does take some getting used to. You were prepared for this by Windows 8, right?
It looks like Microsoft Edge is pretty much necessary at this point. It works…OKAY with Firefox, and apparently much more gracefully with Chrome. However, that makes sense since there are all sorts of Google type things around. Not Gmail, naturally.
There are tools still to query the Gmail inbox from inside Windows. That has always struck me as fundamentally insecure. Then again, I was upset when we went to an always-on Internet connection. [Yes, there are definite exceptions to this rule, and I may well go ahead and implement a schedule. I have a very advanced router so that I can do things just like that. It’s also somewhat unlikely that it has a handy backdoor for certain U.S. folks, since it wasn’t built in the U.S. Or by a U.S. company.
I’m bringing that up because Windows 10 is a partially cloud-based OS by intent.
This means that if you are using more than one computer at home…you’d better keep up on your passwords. If it’s at a business, you should think carefully about stopping Internet access to your office network outside of hours.
As much as possible use a password manager and use cut-and-paste because…key presses can be detected. It will be more difficult with the clipboard in most cases. There are other considerations, of course.
I do not think you can avoid the update!! unless you simply right click the update (by bypassing the offer), going to the update screen itself, and managing to hide that update. There is supposedly a route back, which I would imagine is actually fairly obvious.
Searched for a cure yet again; yet again there’s none. The pain increases daily, though each night I go to bed somehow thinking it couldn’t get worse. Pray for me, to an unknown God?
I just looked at KGB in Wikipedia. It’s better than whoever that moron is that’s saying the KGB is declaring “checmate on the U.S. [whatever]”. That’s exactly like saying that Stalin is. Fine. Out of curiosity, who’s your medium and what’s your point?
There are a few points I know to be wrong and I can’t really draw the line between what’s commonly known and what isn’t–even though that article contradicts some things that were commonly known in the intelligence-related world. Nuff said.
Every day they need to be sent messages saying simply this:
#Remember Tours #WeAreComing
Also, there need to be epics about Tours and the course of the wars against the would-be conquerors of the Middle East who so miserably failed. Those who worship Mohammed (pardon me, Allah) are hardly the first. I’m sure these users of donkeys won’t be the last, and I’m even more sure that their would-be patron Mohammed would curse them and that Allah would give them their just rewards as lovers and followers of Shaitan.